Wanted to end it all today.... | soma1971's Blog

Last night I was sick and needed to rest. Once again she  came into the bed room in another of her moods. I had heard her laying into the kids (again). When she came into the bedroom she went on about the kids not respecting her and such. I tried to get her to listen to herself and see why but then she turned on me and started blasting me to the point that I was lazy and not helping around the house (I am the only bread winner in our house of 7 [5 kids] and as we are in a rural area and heat with wood I make sure the furnace is kept full of wood). She kept on even when I tried to explain the facts and then she started tearing herself down. I tried to get her to stop but got worse and started to attack me again... At that I couldn't take it anymore and walked out of the house, got into my vehicle and drove away.

Everyone thinks that I just showed up for work early today not realizing I spent the night there. My plan was to just work out the day and then get in my vehicle and drive away and just disappear someplace. I love my kids, but I can't take the harassment anymore.

That was the plan but the lack of sleep and my worsening sickness forced me to go home to my bed to get sleep.

And she didn't even realize I wasn't there last night...